Sayonara 2011

Salam,

Well, we are finally at the end of 2011. Thus, it makes me wonder what are the things that I have achieved this year.

Anyway, just to list some or what had happened so far in 2011:

1. Alhamdulillah, rezeki travel again. This time to Melbourne & Hong Kong. Naufal loved it so much that until now he sing the 'it's a small world' Disneyland tu EVERYDAY!
2. Upgrade our old mighty Viva to a Honda Stream.
3. Futsal, Futsal, Futsal!
4. Suddenly became an Apple freak - iPad, iPhone.
5. Naufal got 9 stitches on the chin, oh, how could I forget that lah kan!!
6. The highest amount of bonus + increment that I ever had since working.
7. Maintain the performance rating for three(3) consecutive years. This year punya x taulah camano.
8. The saddest thing that ever happened, we've lost our little precious when I was 10 weeks pregnant.
9. The busiest year so far, too much traveling, too much stress, too much workload.
10. Naufal able to read n memorize Alif Ba Ta, alphabets, numbers, many types of animals, colours, food and many more. He knew our name, his grandparents, friends, teachers, cousins and in fact my friend's name too!I think becoz we had exposed him to a lot of outdoor activities and during traveling.

MasyaAllah, alhamdulillah, I'm grateful for the opportunity that Allah has given us to achieve and experienced all the above. It's not big though, but at least something kan, especially when seeing Naufal progressing well as a toddler. Most of the time he surprised us with the words that coming out from his mouth, e.g.,

I was driving and it was a red traffic light but I didn't stop. So he said:
"Mommy, careful! It's a red colour and you must stop!" - I was like, whoa, budak kecik ni!! Hehe..

So, insyaAllah for 2012, I'm not going to dream big, but insyaAllah at least achieve something below:
1. Be a more patient mom to my cheeky boy, I admit there were few occasions that I've lost my patience and yelled at him. *guilty*
2. travel, travel, travel.
3. Savings, a lot!
4. Umrah
5. Get pregnant again, with Allah's willing
6. Spent time with family
7. Homeschool Naufal n sending him to music school. Daddy of course has a better plan, bab2 mengaji ni. Hihi.
7. Managing the stress at work
8. Most important, a better khalifah & wife. Amin.

See, that's not too much, isn't it? :p

InsyaAllah, we'll meet again in 2012 and may it brings a lot of happiness n rezeki to us, Amin.

Bye!

P/s: I may update this post again with pics, insyaAllah.

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Never ending update

Salam.

Uuh, this is gonna be my 4th draft blog post. I was halfway writing up until my cheeky notty boy conquered the phone. Or asking me to take his video - sing, dance & talk.

So, I have no idea where to start. A lot of things happened in the past few weeks, I was extremely busy with work & still traveling like crazy, I'm still recovering from the miscarriage, I have started playing futsal but got really pancit after 5 minutes in the court, I've been baking a lot, i have to pack my things and move to a new workstation which I really hate the location (sebelah Bos plak tu), So that's basically my short update!


The performance review time had passed and I still haven't got a clue what is my rating. But somehow, a manager accidentally forward an email to his subordinates that got the rating for all our staff in the department, who's on top and bottom. So his subordinates shared the email with me. Hehe. Mmg sengal. Next time u shud read first before forward any emails x pun delete all the confidential info.

Anyway, my cheeky boy is growing up so fast!! Oh man, it's amazing to see how grown up he is now. Now he's starting making sentences in English, most of the time, so BM will sounds a lil bit funny or very direct (mcm ayat perintah). Recently his friend hit him at skool. So the conversation goes like this...

Me: so, what did u learn at skool today.. Did any of your friend or your teacher hit you?
Naufal: yes, jericho hit Naufal here (Showing the head). Then Naufal cry.. (crying sound .. Uuuu)
Me: what did u say to jericho?
Naufal: no jericho, don't hit me.No,no.

Oh boy, in few years time we'll be sending him to primary school!



Anyway, I'm missing my little angel. He/she could have been 19 weeks by now.

Bye!

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Eid Adha

Salam.

There's no other reason why am I still awake coz it was blackout for almost 2 hours and tgn dah lenguh giler mengipas budak kecik ni.. Anyway alhamdulillah, the lights are back on! But nak tido balik dah susah so I thought have having something posted about my Eid here.

So, it's Aidiladha today and this is the 1st Eid that I didn't prepare any typical raya food and 2nd time raya without Hubby (Aidilfitri mestilah kan, kalau xde mmg meraung laa). I'm having quite serious backache pain since last night, maybe coz I had to take care Naufal alone pastu nak jadi cerita he had diarrhea today sampai 6x poopoo. Huhu. Pity him, his bottom become red and irritated and he was crying every time I washed him. He's now on potty training, so luckily he poop in the toilet if dlm pampers lagilah horror. Alhamdulillah, no vomiting whatsoever, hopefully it gets better in the morning.

Anyway, we went to 2 houses today but well, you know of course I can't eat most of the food served. All I had was nasi kerabu with nothing and nasi imp it and kuah kacang. Laksa was very tempted too as well as nasi tomato but I don't wanna take risk. Sounds so not me kan! But I really wanted to get recover fast, so I could enjoy my holiday in Hong Kong in 2 weeks time! Yey!! Haha, you must have thought that to recover fast for before coming back to work.. Big NO!

Mak & Abah SMS me wished Selamat Hari Raya. Yesterday they also messaged saying it was 40deg in Arafah and tido atas carpet n berbatu2 x rata but he said not to worry, both of them are in good health, alhamdulillah except Mak je kot batuk2 sket. Tp itulah hakikat, nanti bila hari Kiamat, di padang Arafah jugaklah segala amalan kita akan dihisab, time tu takde dah carpet or khemah ke.. Apapun, doa sgt diaorg dpt tunaikan Ibadah haji dgn selamat n mendapat berkat dari Allah SWT.

Hubby plak called early morning, with a sad voice. Syahdu kot, thinking of us and maybe thinking of our gone baby, too. Especially when he was the Imam for raya prayers kt platform tadi.. Uhuk2. I was also in tears bila dgr takbir raya, teringat Hubby, parents and the baby too. Agaknya mcm ni lah perasaan org bila time raya, dgr takbir teringat org2 yg tersayang dah pergi meninggalkan dunia..

Oklah, x nak sedih2.. Semoga Eidul Adha ni mendidik kita bahawa pengorbanan adalah perlu untuk menjadikan kita insan yg lebih beriman Dan bersyukur atas nikmat yg Allah dah bagi.. Kdg2 kita selalu lupa bersyukur (diri sendiri jugak).. InsyaAllah, praying for myself to become a better Muslim, which I think I haven't done enough yet. Byk sgt fikir2 time cuti ni, alhamdulillah Allah bagi wake up call kot for what had happened, maybe before this thinking too much on work and duniawi. So, now it's big time for change, never too late. Kena sacrifice a lot of things, but Allah knows best kan! Yg penting kita ikhlas..

Oklah, Salam Eidul Adha again!

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A Truly Sabahan

Salam,

My boy surprised me with his another milestone. This word popped out from his mouth when I tried to take his pillow.

Uh, he's grown up so fast!! Mommy cries now!

"Jangan Bah.."

A trademark for Sabahan. Wait till one day he says - bulih bah kalau ko..

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Post Review

Salam.

As mentioned previously, I had my first review after the surgery with Dr Kr15h3n. He is really, a good and funny doctor.

So he confirmed through the ultrasound that the inside is clean already, nothing was left behind, alhamdulillah. However, he did suggest for us to come again after one month, just to double check. Before we started asking questions, he already explained and advised everything that we were about to ask. hihi.. That was exactly what I expected from a specialist. Not me asking a lot of questions.

Anyway, I've been doing a lot of thinking for the past few days. For now my heart is not thinking about office work anymore. In fact, I initially blamed my workload for what had happened. But after I did a lot of reading and research, miscarriage due to chromosome abnormalities is the most common reason. Knowing this, it sort of calm me down and I didn't feel that very much guilty anymore. I was blaming myself, stress of the workload and so on at first. Ok, true, things always happen for a reason and mmg ada hikmah yg besar which we never know for now. Allah is the greatest.

Nevertheless, I still have a strong feeling that the stress could be one of it. Since I knew I was pregnant, I was so overloaded with office work that sometimes I even feel like crying out loud. At one point, I just dont think I could handled the stress anymore. It was totally different with my 1st pregnancy, where I was very happy, calm and able to cope with workload - yalah, during that time I was still a junior, we have a boss and senior back then.

Now, its too much to handle. We are left with no manager for almost a year and even a senior staff in my section. My colleague, is now the acting manager (we are only 1 half years beza). Sometimes when he's not around, I have to act on behalf and time2 tu lah many things happened. I have 2 juniors under me, pastu keje2 diaorang yg tak siap pun I worried too much. So, dah jadi unnecessary stress for me. Yelah, boleh je biarkan junior tu - pandai2 lah nak hidup, but I'm not that type.

Thing will be different after this. I'll try to cope with the workload, pastu mana2 yg unnecessary stress tu malas nak fikir. I'm not trying to overstretch myself, I just wanna make sure that I will not be in the bottom list, at least.

Oklah, benda dah nak jadi, lesson learnt for me. Now, I am really looking forward for our next vacation!

Bye.

Post Natal Care

Salam,

Currently waiting for my tukang urut to arrive. Im starting my post natal care - urut, tungku & tangas session today for will continue until 5 days.

Well, I do feel the different now, coz the 1st pregnancy was C-Sect so you couldnt feel the different at the 'bottom part' & also rahim. But now since I had gone through D&C which is quite similar to normal delivery, it was weird! Sometimes I feel like mcm masuk angin or else. I rarely not on my socks, am wearing long sleeves at night or a cardigan. Worse if masa hujan, mmg rasa cam ngilu2 badan.

I first thought it is not necessary to berurut, since it was just a miscarriage. After a week resting, Im still feeling weak and sgt takut nak keluar rumah or jalan jauh2. (tp td terpaksa gi office buat claim yg melambak tu.. huhu). So Hubby also suggested that maybe I need a urut session. Luckily I still have the number, Mek yg tukang urut masa my 1st dulu. Mmg best! Terus turun sampai 8kg but seriously, yg bertangas tu mmg keluar air mata and selalu nak skip. 15 minutes felt like forever!

Seriously, now I am really berpantang mcm org bersalin. Dulu pantang jugak, but still ada malas2 pakai socks..hehe.. Skrang mmg x berani. I also feel that I need a fast recovery before going to work again lepas raya Haji.

So, ok lah, Mek will be here anytime. Can't wait!

Bye!

Memoirs

Salam..

Looks like I have plenty of time blogging, eh. Well, I really missed this moment. Where I have my own sweet time blogging and watching the cooking show in TV. Luckily Hubby is refraining me from doing ANY job, which includes cooking. Else I might trying cooking new recipes as shown in the TV. Hehe.

Anyway, alhamdullilah, I'm feeling much better now, except for the stomach pain n the bleeding that come and go. Is that normal? I thought after D&C you won't be having any bleeding. I'll keep that question during my review session with Dr Krishen next Monday.

So, with my spare time today, I have been reading my oldest-older-newer post in blog. While I was reading it, I had a big laugh, giggle and even tears coming out. Oh, it's all about the memories. Some of the posts have also been deleted and completely erased from my memory (yeah right) which is quite impossible to be true. I started blogging since 2004 during my student time in UK and I had lots of memories there, ups & down. The first post was written when it was snowing in Sheffield. I also think it's too valuable and I've decided to keep it for my children to read later and find out who their mommy really was..hehe..

The best memories are the ones that you can't explain and you just have to be there.

I've deleted some though, which was related to my x-bf. Of course I don't want to remember it anymore and xnak one day Hubby got time to read my old posts and read those. So, it's best not to keep any lah kan. Hehe

So yeah, that's what I did for today. And now I missed Sheffield so bad though baru je gi sana last year. Hehe.

Oklah, another cook show on TV.

Till then.

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