Anniversary Trip

Salam.

Oh, unfortunately we had to cancel our trip to Kundasang coz my doc advised not to. Well, not only doctor, my parents and hubby also couldn't agree more.

So, to avoid frustration, I have managed to book quite a deal for a last minute booking at one of the resort in KK. Not really in KK lah but not that far pun.

And here we are, Nexus Karambunai Resort. The last time I had event here was in 2008. I would prefer Shangri La instead but since it was too expensive, I mean like wayyy too pricey - they said its due to the CNY. Well, your room still remain the same so what's up with the pricey??!!

More pictures to come. Hehe.

Hope it's gonna be a blissful getaway, insyaAllah. ;)

Updates

Salam.

I'm back, alhamdulillah finally fully recovered from the sickness. Feeling much better and healthy now, except for the nausea. Well, can't do much about that anyway.

Hubby still in USM penang, struggling with exams, labs and lectures. I hope he's doing ok. My cheeky Naufal on the other hand is now very2 manja with me. God knows how many times a day he kisses my cheek and hugging me like crazy. So it's kinda hard to send him to school every morning. First question in the morning is - Mommy, am I going to school today? If I answered "No" then he will be like the happiest kid in the world and said " yey, I'm very2 happy.. Yuhuuu" and I was like??

How I wish so hard that I can homeschool him. But I can't. Due to lots of commitment I can't afford to stay at home and let my husband work alone. I love to let him explore the nature, be wild and adventures, bringing him to the playground, island and beaches but can't do that so much now. I'm now very hygiene freak, coz his new school don't allow sick child going to school until FULLY recovered. OK, thats HARD. The weather now is extremely freaking hot, it's windy and with that, it is so easy for a kid to get any kind of virus or fever. I was lucky that when Naufal was so sick the other day my husband is around otherwise there goes my annual leave. Nowadays rotavirus and h1n1 are spreading again, hence I don't wanna take any risk. Pity him, kena stay at home je, the most pun play bicycle. Swimming is also no-no at the moment, better be safe than sorry later.

So, it does break my heart that he can't do a lot of things during school term. I know this wont happen if I'm able to homeschool him and be a full time housewife. That's why now I'm planning for holiday and getaways during school holidays. Time tu nak demam ke batuk ke layan je la. Alhamdulillah he's the type yg seldom get sick, the last time he got flu n fever I pun x igt it could be in October or September even though he was at nursery during that time. I'm so glad and happy with his nursery, it's the best in KK I can say compared to the other places that we went. At least it's clean, so susahlah budak nak dpt virus and they are also quite strict, kalau demam or selsema x boleh hantar. Alhamdulillah, although a bit expensive but worth it la..

Oklah, better get some sleep now. This boy needs my arm now.

Good night!

Xoxo.

Sick

Salam.

Oh I have no been feeling very well since the last post hence this blog was in hiatus mode. In fact, I was so sick until I could get up from the bed.

Alhamdulillah, after 4 days of fever, gastric, flu & cough, I have finally recovered, well not fully yet though. But at least it gave me xtra energy to take care my sick boy and I think I got it from him. The whole week he was at home and didn't go to school.

Hubby left for USM Penang this morning so I hope I'm gonna be ok, so glad that my mom is here, at least somebody can cook nice food at home coz I know I won't be cooking if I'm alone. Hehe.

So far, alhamdulillah. Reviews have been OK and looks like the growth is as per EDD. Nothing unusual but my doc said lets not assume anything yet coz remember the last time we lost the baby everything was fine until the next check up when we found out there was no heart beat. I told doctor that I'm quite nervous when its approaching 10 weeks (I'm now 8weeks+). So he said pray hard and DON'T eat, drink, do anything weird. And I asked how weird is weird? Haha. Coz he said all the tests he carried out seems very normal and healthy so nothing is wrong but yet it was mysterious why the recurrent miscarriages. Better be safe, just eat healthily, rest a lot and don't travel far. Even to kundasang. Oh my, that is so depressing. But, what choice do I have now?

Hopefully Allah will protect us and ease my pregnancy journey this time which so far, had been quite tough with all the of sick ness. Doctor also said next time if u got fever come to see him and he will put me in the hospital. Staying at home will takes longer time to recover and of course i got a week MC. Hehe.

Oklah, gotta sleep now. Pray for me, people.

Thanks a lot!

Xoxo.

Positive

Salam.

Happy new year bloggers!



Well, today is Naufal's 1st day of school. He was at first pretty excited, woke up early, had his cereal and then enter the school. The actual drama all started when he saw his friends were crying out loud like nobody's business and then only he started getting emosional. Oh, did I tell you that he is so manja with me, he sleeps on my arms every single night!


Anyway, we decided not to stay longer coz we knew it's gonna be harder for him so we left after an hour. It was heartbroken to see him giving me 'that face' so I was also in tears (pregnancy hormone ok! Hehe) When we picked him up, his teacher said he did cry and he also admitted that. He said 'Naufal cry so many times, Naufal said I want mommy and I want to go home'. Shame la you boy! Hehe

That's why I took leave today. I also had appointment with my gynae. I had ultrasound but couldn't see a fetus, only the sac (now I'm worry). Then he said maybe it's still to early and too deep so it's not clear. Or maybe he was saying this to make me feel good? I don't know. See the small hole? That's the sac. Today I'm exactly six weeks, alhamdulillah.


So Doc prescribed me with some medication which he said might help and this is the best we can do and try. I'll be having a detail blood test on Monday, coz I'm now in KL and will need to fast. I knew Doc will say no traveling and I told him that I'm going back to KL at 5.30pm today. Huhu. He'll also issue a letter for that (no traveling) so I was joking that maybe I need a rest or MC? hehe.

I know I shouldn't he traveling but I really néed to go home to sign stuff with the bank. It's the home loan for the house renovation in Seremban. Praying hard that Allah will protect both of us. After twice miscarriages, it's so hard to think positive. I never want it to happen again but it's always this little voice saying what if it happen again.. So I'm getting a bit of phobia of pregnancy.

Basically these are the multivitamins and medication that I consumed everyday. I'll make sure that I don't miss any of it. Doc wanted to prescribe vitamins but I said I still have mine. So he just gave the other 2 pills.




Vitamin E & Omega missed out from this pics. Just sempat grab this 3 (C, B complex & colic acid) je tadi when I was packing.



Progesterone is a hormon pill. So you see how much do I need to swallow everyday? It's like a dozen. But this progesterone is inserted via v*gin*. OK, quite a relief coz at least I don't have to telan. Haha. But it makes me dizzy laaa..

So oklah, good luck to me! I really hope i can dicipline myself to take all these pills..

Gotta need some rest here. Hope Allah will ease my journey and protect us from any harm.

Bye!

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pre new year post

Salam.

OK, I'm still gathering best photos for 2012. So much of ups and down, sad and tears but alhamdulillah, Allah has given us the greatest gift of the year, yet again, as a closing for 2012 despite all the bitter memories.
I couldn't be more thankful ever.

Work wise, well, what do you expect lah kan, of course it was depressing and stressful but there were few things that I felt satisfied with what I've done and alhamdulillah able to contribute to the company's business. Chewah, gila patriotic.. haha.. Although performance rating is not out yet, I dont really bother anymore, Allah  works in so many ways to grant us the rezeki, if its meant to be. No matter how high flyer you are, there will always be somebody try to bring you down and its happens soooooo many times that people yg x buat keje sgt, kipas2 bos, present je (itupun amik presentation pack org! cess!!) will shine. So life isn't fair, yes. But Allah is always fair. Keep that in mind.

Business pulak, not too bad, I was able to generate RM1.5K - 2K per month, with Sh4kl33 and 3lken. Alhamdulillah. 2013 nak target high sikit, I really need extra money coz dah pokai and berabis buat rumah cost almost RM400K kat Seremban. Huhu. Xpelah, at least my parents and siblings dpt merasa jugak. InsyaAllah, rezeki x ke mana kan. So, there'll be no more changing cars to our dream cars in the next 10 yrs. haha.

This Monday will be my 1st check up with my gynae, sgt nervous. Phobia pun ada. But I'm trying my very best to be positive, berserah byk2 pada Allah, only Him. He knows whats best for us. I hope this pregnancy journey will go smoothly, Amin. But seriously, pimples!!! Oh man, this is my first time dealing with this situation. OK, mmg kena pakai mask at least twice a week.

Ok ppl, gotta get some sleep now. Naufal needs my arms, baru terlelap. My manja boy!

Bye! Have a great weekend.

True

Salam.

So true;


Alhamdulillah, great gift from Allah, most awaited.



May Allah ease this journey, Amin. Pray for us..

xoxo

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Salam.

Yesterday I was quite excited to post on something, but now not anymore.

My period has delayed for 4 days which is something that never happened before. So I thought, oh, it could be, right. But all the results went negative when I took the test. Previous pregnancies I took the test on the expected period date itself and got positive.

Anyway, it is heartbroken to then realize that I got my period today. :( And I was crying in the toilet, I let it out for 10 mins.

Maybe because everyone else around me is getting pregnant and just got their new babies. By right, I now should have a baby in my arms as last Friday was my expected due date.

I know, people will say, well, at least u already have a child. But hey, experiencing a miscarriage - twice is definitely tough to handle. It's a tragic loss, traumatic and heartbroken. You'll keep looking on the calendar and somehow realized that you aren't pregnant anymore.

Perhaps I've been working too hard, I really need a break.

Ok, I should stop here before my tears keep on running.

Ya Allah, I humbly seek for your forgiveness. Please give me courage and strength to go through this.

Amin.


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